Amy

Things er changin

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 04:25:21 GMT

I will be a home owner in approximately 17 days. I went out and bought a new coffee maker and a whole bunch of storage bin things today, and I started to pack. I threw away a whole bunch of shit tha I have no idea why I have kept for so long... Smith, if you're reading and you want the hard copies of the old Junior Highlights, give me a buzz. They're on top of the trash. I love you, by the way. Anyway, I got most of my closet done, and I have a long ass way to do. I figure if I do a little bit every day, it won't be so overwhelming when the time comes. I can't wait to have my own space again. I might paint the house in my underwear, just because I can. Speaking of being in my underwear, I need to lose some weight. I'm thinking that if I just cut out all the damn cookies I eat at work and do some walking at night, it may do the trick. I can't give up good food, low carb, crap schmarb. Jillian will be walking soon, and that may do the trick too. I'll be chasing her little ass all over the place. I can't wait. She's getting so big. I'm a proud mamma...
Josh joined the army, and I don't like it one bit. I have to support the guy, but aren't there rules about this sort of thing? He's really psyched about it, but it makes me worry. Dennis toyed with the military idea for a few days, but I don't think that there's any way that I could be in a place like that with just Jillian for very long. I appriciate family so much more now that I have her, and I don't think I could pull her that far away from my parents... It may kill them. If he would've wanted to do this sort of thing 2 years ago, I would've been all for it. But now, we're about to close on our house, I have a great job, great friends, and I don't think that I could give that all up so easily. I traveled with Americorps and it was wonderful, but I'm home now. Comfortable. If you would've told me 5 years ago that I would have ended up here doing what I'm doing, I would've been liable to throw a big fit. Yes, me, a fit.

Turds of all kinds

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 03:39:23 GMT

Went to Oklahoma and back in 3 days... I'm glad I went. Mammaw got the respect that she deserved, and I learned a lot about my family history while we were there. Jillian was actually really good in the car. Better than me. I blessed a highway in Oklahoma with some turds. It never fails that you have to take a dump NOW when there's road construction and no rest stops for 40 miles. Better on the side of the road than in my pants, eh?
Speaking of turds... That shitting dog Sadie shit on the floor as usual, and I happened to have stepped out of the room just for 2 MINUTES. I get back to the living room, and there is my daughter, turd in hand and a smile on her face. She had crap all over her face, hands, and arms. And of course it wasn't a bland dry dog turd, it was a smelly slimy one. So I gagged the whole time I was cleaning her up, and of course she thought that I had just taken a toy away from her, so she was PISSED. Comedy. Pure comedy.
And most importantly, we finally found a house and had a bid accepted. We can't close until the end of July, but that's ok since I have to get appliances and shit. It's a cute 2 bedroom 2 bathroom house with a screened in back porch and a big back yard. I actually like it better than the 1st house we bid on. The neighborhood is better and I like the floor plan in this place a lot more. My loan is all ready to go, so now I just have to wait until July.

Wed, 18 May 2005 02:04:19 GMT

Mammaw passed away today... There's a helluva party in heaven tonight.

Oh damn

Sat, 07 May 2005 03:13:41 GMT

I shouldn't have talked shit, because I didn't win the bidding war. After 3 rounds, the bitch would only come down 600 bucks from her asking price, so she can rot there. The sad thing was that I can afford her asking price, but she pissed me off by being uncooperative. If she would've just met me in the middle, she probably still would have came out ahead. Good luck finding another schmuck that is willing to move to North 8th St, lady! I'll find another ghetto, thank you.
Dennis got called back to Trinity yesterday. He's going back Tuesday, thank God. Granted, I love being Jillian's sole caretaker, but it will be SO nice to have some help besides Mom in the evenings. I can't wait to be able to run an errand without making arrangements to leave her home, or drag her with me. That kid is getting heavy.

The haggling begins

Wed, 04 May 2005 03:29:33 GMT

This house bidding stuff is kinda fun... My bid got denied right of the bat, and the lady only came down 600 bucks!!! I have a feeling that this may be a long process... She'll go down. It's a big game, but I'll win. I'm good at that.
I'm tired of my ed award sitting in a government fund in no mans land. Every year I write cns and they usually at least write be back and say that no, I can't have it in cash. I wrote a few weeks ago and requested cash, or at least to let me donate it to a student from a needy family. They didn't even respond this time. I'm writing the president tomorrow. I might write his wife, too.

Ramblings about it all

Tue, 03 May 2005 02:52:28 GMT

Well, I'm bidding on a cute little bungalow tomorrow, and my stomach is in knots like you wouldn't believe. The thought of it all makes me want to laugh, cry, and poop my pants all at the same time. My life is about to drastically change... That's one of the best parts about being this age... Nothing ever stays the same. Anyway, the house makes me think about my pappaw. The place is almost identical to what his house looked like. I can still remember being in his living room eating a jar of pickles and totally believing him when he told me that his belly button was where he got shot in the war. When I think about him I feel so proud... If he were here he would be so tickled about my life, as ordinary as it is. I've been so lucky.
One time when I was in Americorps, I found not only ONE 20 dollar bill on the groud, but 2 in one day. We were doing a little thing called Camp For Kids, which was about the most depressing thing ever. We had to have 80 hours of individual service hours to graduate, and of course, it was the last month of Americorps, and here I was with 50 hours. (Shit.) So anyway, I hear about this Camp, which was a weekend where kids with AIDS come to this hotel, and no talk about AIDS, medicine, or anything related is allowed to be brought up. The kids are only allowed to stuff their faces and have fun for the weekend. So here I am, a chaperone for 3 little girls. We went to a MASSIVE water park for a whole Saturday. I think that it was the most heartbreaking experience of my life. One of the girls I was taking care of had a feeding tube, and she acted as if it was the most normal thing in the world. I spent lots of time hiding in the bathroom attempting to collect myself. I'm a sissy, I guess. But anyway, we went to burger king before going to the hotel, and I found a 20 on the ground, and then at the water park, I snuck out for a most needed smoke break and found another one in the parking lot. When you only make 1.13 an hour, finding 2 twenties is huge. I don't think I'll ever forget it. I don't know what made me think of it, but there it was in my head. I wish that I could remember everything as vividly as I used to. It's all slipping away, little by little. I wish I had the time to volunteer like I used to. I hate to be one of those people that make excuses, but hell, there just aren't enough hours in the day. I'd give anything to have a weekend to work on a habitat house. Give me a hammer, dammit.

muahahahahah

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 03:03:43 GMT

The Monckton Mansion is now for sale again. Should Josh and I be the closet gay artist and his wife, or should we just dress up as a rich couple moving from Chicago to raise our family? Something is majorly fucked up with that place. I can't wait to see what the latest people did to it.
Went to the bank for info today, got qualified for a loan on my own... Since I got my raise, I qualify for the 5 grand loan. Going to look at 3 houses tomorrow. Things are looking up... Maybe we'll have our own place soon. Nothing can come up again, can it?

Another survey, damn I love to talk about myself!

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 02:09:38 GMT

Today was definitely a Monday. But on a great note, I'm off call, and Dennis has 2 days off this week. I'm going to the casino to join the old ladies of the midwest for some gambling one day this week, and it will be grand as always.
Still on the hunt for a place to rent... We're getting desperate, but at the same time, I'm a little nervous to move out. We've lived here for so long, and I'm worried that Jillian is going to flip out when we leave. She loves my parents so much. It's going to be an adjustment to us all...
SURVEY TIME NOW!

Last Cigarette: 10 minutes ago... I love that it's nice outside again!

Last Alcoholic Drink: I had a margarita last night

Last Car Ride: Home from WalGreens

Last Kiss: Yesterday

Last Good Cry: Probably the day that Dennis got laid off... I don't know that that was a good cry, though

Last Movie Seen in Theaters: Holy crap, it's been a long time. I don't remember what movie it was, but I DO remember that I got free refills on my cherry slush... The important things stick with me.

Last Movie Rented: The Notebood

Last Cuss Word Uttered: Shit probably

Last Beverage Drank: Milk

Last Food Consumed: Slush pop

Last Crush: Dennis I guess.

Last Time Showered: this morning

Last Phone Call: Kim

Last TV Show Watched: The biography channel was on, something on Goldie Hawn, I wasn't really paying attention

Last Shoes Worn: Tennies

Last CD Played: Jack Johnson's new cd

Last CD Bought: Tori's newest

Last Annoyance: Jillian decided that she didn't want to wear pants to bed. It was a battle, but I won

Last Disappointment: Various events today

Last Thing Written: Something on a post it note, I'm sure

Last Word Spoken: you

Last Sleep: last night

Last IM: I don't do that anymore

Last Weird Encounter: Did o2 over the weekend where the lady pooped her pants. I guess that's wierd.

Last Ice Cream Eaten: Oreo blizzard, yum!

Last Time In Love: see last kiss

Last Time Hugged: Helen hugged me today

Last Chair Sat In: this one!

Last Shirt Worn: I have on a red T

Last Webpage Visited: Hotmail

Last Thing Lost: I'm forever losing my lighter

hmmmm

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 03:19:43 GMT

So if there is really a god, I wonder if he does EVERYTHING on purpose. Like, does God really have time to say, "I think I'm going to make Amy's face break out tomorrow." Or is it a combination of a sandman/elf type creature that decides to sprinkle stuff on my face at night to make it happen. Either way, I look gross today... If only that was the least of my problems.

It's alright

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 05:37:57 GMT

There are some terribly shitty people in my life, but having great friends makes life all worth it... Who cares if they live in Japan?

Emails from Bean and I

Are you in Hawaii, you shithead?? Just writing to say hi. I have a tad bit of a buzz tonight, so I may ramble at ya... You've been warned. It sounds like everything is wonderful for you. I'm so glad that you're still going full speed. It's insane to think of how different our lives are. I wish I could just hang out with you for an afternoon... I miss you being my sanity on some days.
Ya know how I was talking about a house last email??? Funny how life can get turned upside down really fast. We had finally found a place that we loved and had an appt at 6PM to bid on it... THEN Dennis got laid off at about 4. Aint that a bitch?!?! It was one of those be devistated and cry for 10 minutes, then pick myself back up and realize that things could be a helluva lot worse... So yeah, Dennis got laid off and the job market here is crap, but we'll get by as usual. I'm trying to keep a good additude. I don't want Jillian to know that times are tough. I hope we have our shit together by the time that she's aware of things more.
I tried to attach a pic to this email since I have no luck with snail mail. This isn't the best pic of her, but I'm using my parents computer. Mine doesn't have the internet right now. So yeah, that's the best I can show you right now. She's the prettiest baby in the world.
That's all for today. Hope you had a great spring break!!!
Love,
Amy

Amy!!
Hey, it's good to hear from you! Little Jillian is adorable, and I would expect nothing less. She's definitely got those big baby
eyes, aww. Well that sucks about the job and house, although the timing wasn't to bad (learning about the job before deciding on
the house). I'm sure you'll work it out just fine and I think you already have your shit together.
So spring break was pretty cool, to say the least. My friend and I got hooked up with the top floor (44th) room of a hotel in
downtown Waikiki for $25 each per night, oh my god! We lived like rap stars, hit the beach every day, I spent an entire day surfing
and watched the sunset from the board, saw some old friends, partied it up, ahh good times. It's a little rough coming back to the
Japanese pace of work, but I've got some nerve complaining right?
So yeah things are pretty nice out here, I hope by the next email things are great for you, I also miss hanging out with you
watching the lightning and talking, fishing for viscious sharks, all that good stuff. Well girl, gotta go but it's been good typing
to you, I wish the snail mail worked, but many people say they are having problems, some forgot to write JAPAN on the address, so
other than that I don't know. Anyways hang in there, you've got a beautiful baby girl, give her a hug for me and tell her to give
you one from me as well, love ya, peace out!
-Justin

Survey time

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 08:16:14 GMT

I havn't done a survey in so long, although this one kinda sucks.

1.What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before? Had a baby

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? I don't ever make resolutions, so I guess that answers both questions.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Does me count?

4. Did anyone close to you die? Not this year

5. What countries did you visit? Travel? What's that?

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004? A house

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? June 9, the day that Jillian was born.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Keeping my sanity

9. What was your biggest failure? Not reaching our goal of moving out of the basement

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? I had to get my galbladder taken out.

11. What was the best thing you bought? Save save save save save

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? Jillian's. She's the best baby in the world

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? A certain gnome look alike co worker

14. Where did most of your money go? Wal Mart.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Hatching

16. What song will always remind you of 2004? Back that ass up?

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? In most aspects, happier
iii. richer or poorer? A lot richer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of? Took more time for myself

19. What do you wish you'd done less of? Working overtime

20. How will you be spending Christmas? Watching Jillian open presents

21. Did you fall in love in 2004? Not romantically

23. How many one-night stands? None

24. What was your favorite TV program? Who's line is it anyway never fails to crack me up

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? Oh yes

26. What was the best book you read? I'm such a fucking mom... What to expect when you're expecting was my bible this year, for lack of a better term.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery? I've finally given country music a chance, and it's not bad.

28. What did you want and get? A healthy, happy baby.

29. What did you want and not get? My house, but dammit, I will this year!

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? 23. Went to work, and honestly, I don't remember. Sad.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably satisfying? My year was incredibly satisfying. I couldn't ask for much more. Maybe a longer maternity leave.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004? Maternity clothes are the most terrible thing EVER. I HATE ELASTIC.

34. What kept you sane? My job. It's nice to have something that is mine... Something out of the house that is incredibly satisfying.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? I'm going to marry Kenny Chesney.

36. What political issue stirred you the most? I try not to be stirred, but the election.

37. Who did you miss? My americorps buds as usual.

38. Who was the best new person you met? Shelly

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004: As long as you have your family, everything will be ok.

daaaaaaaaaaamnit

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 01:43:04 GMT

Live with parents for eternity
Save lots of money
House hunt
Fall in love with house
Have appointment to bid on house at 6PM
Dennis gets laid off at 4PM
Fuck

If only inlaws were a fairytale...

Wed, 01 Dec 2004 04:51:43 GMT

Sometimes I love Jillian so much that it hurts. I hate taking her to the babysitter every morning. Why couldn't maternity leave have lasted forever? She's growing so fast. I can't get enough of her.
Thanksgiving was horrid... If I can make it through Christmas, it will be a dammed miracle. Got to hang out with my old friend Josh, though, which made things a little bit better. All will be ok!!
Ted, did you get Jillian's email? Please send address, I need to get some pictures out to you. Scanner is on the fritz.

Good stuff in life

Sat, 23 Oct 2004 04:04:58 GMT

Jillian's colic is gone, thanks to physical therapy, Dennis has a job, and my gallbladder is gone. Life is so much better. We're back on track, should hopefully have a house by January.
And most importantly, I witnessed someone pop a pimple and eat it this week. I don't think I'll ever get over it.

Tue, 27 Jul 2004 21:02:39 GMT

Dennis lost his job, Jillian has colic, and I have to get my gallbladder sliced out. Yay.

Little Lady

Sun, 25 Jan 2004 18:34:21 GMT

To my shock and almost disbelief, this little wiggly thing inside my stomach as it turns out is a girl. I'm almost 5 months down and it sinks in more and more every day. The kicks started a few days ago... They're very subtle, but a nice little reminder that she's in there. I can't wait for her to make her appearance. The scary part is how much I have to do before she gets here. We're starting to look for houses again, being that tax returns will be here soon. I havn't bought a single thing for her... It's almost like I feel as if I'll jinx myself if I do. I know that the critical parts are over and she looks healthy as can be, but the things that go through your head as a pregnant woman are scary. I just want her to be ok.
It's been a good week... Ted is home which always provides a good source of entertainment. Boozen was home for a brief stint last weekend, but for some reason he LEFT ALL OF HIS HAIR AT SOME BARBER SHOP! We had a wonderful time catching up, though. As much as our lives progress and get turned around into all different directions, our comfort levels with eachother stay the same. We can go 6 months without seeing eachother, but when we get together it's like time has paused for us. I miss him being around all the time. Damn growing up.

Life has changed

Fri, 28 Nov 2003 18:57:10 GMT

Damn, it's been awhile... I'm pregnant, yay! 3 months down, 6 to go. It was a nice little accident, but I'm thrilled at the thought of starting my own family. Got an ultrasound the other day, and the little tike has both arms and legs and everything else that's supposed to be there, which was a total relief. It made it a little easier to believe that it's in there, since the pregnancy has been cake so far. I hate to count my blessings yet, being not far along, but I havn't had any morning sickness or weight gain. Just keep me away from onions, and I'm fine. I think it's a boy, but I really don't care, as long as everything comes out alright. Dennis is thrilled, parents are thrilled, all is well.
Portland was awesome. Arrived at the airport with a greeting from the boys... Nothing has changed, we're all still so in sync with eachother. The wedding was beautiful and we had a wonderful time catching up. Being with them still feels like family, which after 2 years was amazing.
Work is ok... We've gone through 3 CSR's while I've been there, so hopefully when we hire a new one next week, they're stick around. I'm tired of having to be alone up there. Since my last post I'm much more comfortable in my enviornment. Things have pieced together and I feel more like I belong there. It's got it's shitty parts just like any job does, but for the most part, I'm happy with my position there. Life is good.

Feel like poop

Wed, 09 Jul 2003 14:14:32 GMT

Stayed home from work today, I feel like cruuuuuud. I'm going to sit on my ass all day and watch movies. I bought the goonies last night, so I'll watch that until dennis gets up. I think I'm going to bribe him with lunch to go rent some movies for me.
I won 250 bucks at the boat last night! I swear, there's nothing better than free money. I took brandon, sarah, and haley out to dinner afterward and then went to walmart and bought some useless crap. The rest I'm putting in the portland fund. I got the plane ticket awhile back, now I just need spending money for the trip. Only 3 weeks to go!!

surveys and schitsos

Thu, 26 Jun 2003 02:32:42 GMT

For Ted... Damn, it's been a long time.

1. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING ON
WEEKDAYS? 630 or 7AM, blegh

2. IF YOU COULD EAT LUNCH WITH ONE FAMOUS PERSON, WHO
WOULD IT BE? Same answer that I've always had... Tori Amos.

3. GOLD OR SILVER? Silver or platinum, gold sucks balls.

4. WHAT WAS THE LAST FILM YOU SAW AT THE CINEMA? It was a really bad horror flick about aliens. I don't even remember the name.

5. FAVORITE TV SHOW? I only really watch the news

6. WHAT DO YOU HAVE FOR BREAKFAST MOST OFTEN? Coffee

7. CAN YOU TOUCH YOUR NOSE WITH YOUR TONGUE? No, I sure can't.

8. WHAT INSPIRES YOU? The less fortunate

9. WHAT'S YOUR MIDDLE NAME? Lynn

10. BEACH, CITY, Or COUNTRY? All of the above. It all depends on my mood.

11. FAVORITE SEASON? Spring

12. FAVORITE ICE CREAM? I like all different kinds

13. BUTTERED, PLAIN, OR SALTED POPCORN? Buttered AND salted. Fat is good, right?

14. FAVORITE COLOR? Purple

15. YOUR FAVORITE CAR? Mine, of course

16. FAVORITE SANDWICH FILLING? Ham?

17. WHAT CHARACTERISTICS DO YOU DESPISE? Annoying voices, defensiveness, crabbiness in general

18. FAVORITE FLOWER Any wild flowers, big ones!

19. IF YOU HAD A BIG WIN IN THE LOTTERY, HOW LONG
WOULD YOU WAIT TO TELL
SOMEONE? As long as it took them to answer the phone

20. FIZZY OR STILL WATER AS A DRINK?
huh?

21. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHROOM? it's done in blues

22. HOW MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING? 5

23. WHERE WOULD YOU RETIRE TO? Charleston, SC

24. CAN YOU JUGGLE? IF YES HOW MANY?! Noooooo

25. FAVORITE DAY OF THE WEEK: Saturday

26. RED OR WHITE WINE? Migraine or no migraine?

27. FAVORITE BEER? King Cobra

28. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY? Bar hopped, it sucked

29. DO YOU CARRY A DONOR CARD? Drivers liscense.

Shit, that survey was on the boring side, ted. Oh well, it cured boredom for about 3 minutes.

I'm cranky. I've felt a little off all day. I was all over the place last night, but tonight I just feel lonely, not to be all whiney and whatnot. I was so pissed today at work... I decided since I was in a funk that I would go around town and do equipment checks. Wes gave me the big list of people that needed to have thiers done, so I got on the phone, made a few appointments, and I was on my way. My very first stop was a little apartment, and the guy swung open the door before I even knocked, which was wierd because there were NO windows in the place. The dude was super duper creepy. He sent me to the room with the concentrator, so I go in there and he goes into another room and shuts the door on me. I was just like, "ooookay." and checked the shit and got the HELL out of there, not thinking much about it. So anyway, I get back to the office and my boss was looking at the papers for the checks that I did, and immediately flips out. Apparently, the wierd guy is schitsophrenic (SP?) and none of us are even supposed to go there without one of the guys. He's got a history of being violent, (Not with lincare people, just people in general) which totally scared the shit out of me. I will NEVER EVER go out for equipment checks again without having my boss check where I'm going first. No more scary people for me, thank you.

gah

Sat, 07 Jun 2003 19:10:49 GMT

Things have been a little stressful, but all around, it's ok. Work is getting a little more understandable. I went on my first 02 set up the other day... I should've called in sick that day, because I can't get it out of my head. The man that I set up was 92 and a little hard of hearing, but otherwise sharp as a tack for that age. Anyway, I was so nervous that I flubbed the whole thing up, and I feel like I screwed the guy over because someone else could've explained things SO much better than I did... I keep thinking of him and I worry so much that he's confused about it, not using it right, and it's my fault. I have a whole new admiration for nurses now... Going into these elderly people's homes and knowing that you're the first person that they've seen in maybe weeks is so depressing. I cried both days that I set these people up, just because they were so sweet, and they're dying and lonely. I guess there's a fine line when you're in this profession of having a heart, and not being able to do the job because you're heart is just too big. It's all so easy to sit in the office and process paperwork, read names and not put a person with it. But being in the field gives you a face for the name, and it's one of the harder things that I've done in my life.
On a lighter and happy side, everyone is going to Ari's wedding except sensei. I'm so excited about it! Her wedding day will be the exact 2 year mark that we graduated and saw eachother last. It's going to be such a trip, I can't wait.
Today Dennis's uncle is getting married, so I'm meeting the entire family tonight at his grandma's... I'm a little nervous about it, but I'm sure that it'll be fine. We havn't been getting along at all lately, which sucks because I never even see him because of our schedules. We almost broke up last week... It was scary. I'm pretty dependent on him, financially, emotionally, and in every other way. I just hope it's a phase that we'll pass through, because otherwise, there's going to be a long, hard road ahead.

work, sleep, work, work, recover, work some more

Wed, 07 May 2003 01:29:30 GMT

Well, the new job is OKAY. I don't hate it, which says something I guess, since I usually hate all new jobs... It's really hard... I've been there 2 weeks and I don't even know a FOURTH of what the job entails... Lots and lots of paperwork that is all incredibly detail oriented. I like all the people there. The one that I work with the most quit though, which sucks balls. They're all pretty nice, but not overly. I'm comfortable with them at least. I don't feel completely excluded. I guess I shouldn't complain. I'm so tired of doing both jobs though... Those days that I work 8AM to 1AM are brutal... I wish john would find someone to replace me. Dad worked for me last night so I could have a break, thank god. Tomorrow is another hell day. God, the things people do for money.

No more unemployment for me!

Sat, 19 Apr 2003 19:57:07 GMT

The past few days have been NUTS! I passed the whiz quiz and shit, went back in for another interview wednesday and got hired on friday... I start monday at 8. I'm kinda neutral about the whole thing. The only bad part is that I'm going to still be working at the bar until John finds someone else to take my place, so that means 17 hour days on Monday and Wednesdays. I don't know how my body/mind is going to deal with it, but I can't just leave John and Barbie in a tight spot... That's not fair to them, especially since John was doing me such a huge favor. The job doesn't sound too bad, but we'll see how she goes... The starting pay is more than I left supra with, the bennies are better, so I can't really beat it.
Had a bbq yesterday and Dennis's and my parents met for the first time... It went so well! They all hit it off great. Dennis was a wreck the whole time, but I had fun... Ted showed up for a bit and so did jared and his old lady, which was a little awkward, but ok. The whole thing was supposed to be for sarah's b day, but it just ended up being a plain bbq, which I kinda felt bad for, but I don't think she minded. We ended up going to the boat afterward and I won 25 bucks, yay! After we left the boat we went to the 18 wheeler. She and I are really getting along, which is nice, but the whole thing makes me a little nervous. Just scared that something will go wrong I guess... I can't help but be paranoid, it's in my nature or something.
Today we have my gpa's 70th b day party... I think my sister is coming home today too. Tomorrow is easter, but I'm working, which sucks because sally is having a weenie roast. NO WEENIES FOR ME! Damn.

Amy Hates Interviews!

Thu, 10 Apr 2003 17:21:44 GMT

Last night blew goat for quarters. I hate bar drama. There's this lady who's boyfriend beat the shit out of her, they break up, ect. ect. Anyway, dude is barred from coming into the club. He won't stop calling the bar, stalking her, blah blah... So I'm sitting there talking to her and Barbie, the other bartender, and here he strolls in the door... If there's one thing I hate, it's a woman beater. I immediately was like, "HEY! you gotta go, buddy! You know you're not allowed in here!" And he proceeds to ignore me after I say this a few times, so my natural instinct is to call dennis over. So dennis finally gets him to leave, such a mess. Turns out I did things all wrong, because one, I left the back of the bar to approach him, which apparently is illegal. Then, I didn't call the cops, which is what I was supposed to do right on. And I wasn't supposed to involve dennis either, since I'm supposed to be the one in control... Barbie told me all this after he left. I wish she would've just cut in...No one tells me these things! So anyway, he goes, and I close up at one... Turns out he left straight from there and broke into her house, the bastard. Fucking people... Jeeze.
After the bar we went to the wheeler with brandon and sarah and then back to thier house for awhile, which was enjoyable. Stayed til like 4, which was stupid since I had that interview at 11... I went, and I think it went well, because they sent me straight to the clinic for a whiz quiz. The interview sucked as far as THEY went... They proceeded to kinda sit there and tell me that the job that I'm up for is a living hell. Thanks!!! I don't really want it... I'm happy how things are, but it's just too good to pass up. Gotta grow up sometime. And as far as the bar goes, I'll stay there and work 16 hours on monday and wednesday until john finds someone else... I'm getting way too caught up in that place for my own good.

Wed, 09 Apr 2003 21:13:26 GMT

Well, I have an interview at Lincare tomorrow. I don't know what to wear, dammit. Not much fits anymore... Maybe the good home cooked meals every night are killing me. But regardless, I'm being dishonest with myself saying that I really want this job. I like bartending. I'm banking right now, but a good paying, full time job with bennies is not something that I can pass up if it is offered to me. I'll just have to see how it goes.
Talked to boozen on the phone last night, and he may be coming home for the summer!! He doesn't want to, which I totally understand, but on my selfish side, I really hope that he does end up here. It would be so nice for him to be around. It'll make me miss rich like crazy, I know, but otherwise, it would be positively wonderful.
Off to work I go... It's gonna be a long night. We're going out with brandon and sarah after I get off. I may have to cut things shorter than I'd like to, gotta be rested enough to bullshit my way through an interview... I hate interviews.

How to feel??

Tue, 08 Apr 2003 09:15:28 GMT

Decided to switch things around, be a tad more annonymous.
Went to work today and it was DEAD AS HELL... I was starting to get a little pissy, thinking that I would make absaloutely no money for the night. Well, one of the regulars named tom came in... He's an older man, a big flirt... It was dead, so I sat with him most of the night, and he ended up throwing me around 60 bucks. I didn't really want to take his money, but he wasn't having any arguments with me... "Take it and be happy, I can't take it with me!" I just don't want him to think that I was taking advantage of him, because I wasn't... I really like the guy. It's like, on one hand, I'm thrilled to have the extra cash, but then on the other, I just feel guilty... I'm going to write him a thank you note at least. When things like that happen, it really makes me re gain faith in humanity, people in general... There's still some genuinely nice ones out there, and I feel fortunate to be surrounded by some of the best.
I'm worried about pat. I keep emailing him with no avail... I hate to think of him over there. hell, I have NO idea where he is. I think that's what bugs me the most... Before when he was in japan, I knew where he was, that he was ok. Now, I have no fucking clue. He could be in iraq, japan, china, I don't know. He's in my thoughts all the time... I really took for granted having all my boys here. I hope they all come home safe, because I don't think I could handle losing any of them.
Not much else for the day. I have tomorrow off, so I think I'm going to sit around and watch movies, maybe go to the boat and throw away 20 bucks or so. I wish it would warm up and dry up. I want to ride my bike!